Another change I know I'll have to get used to is more personal. I really am a very selfish person and value my "down-time" very highly. Once there is a baby in the house though, I'm going to have to put my own needs aside to make sure Baby Sabin is well-cared for. Not that I think this will be a major problem... I really am looking forward to meeting and caring for Baby Sabin, but still... I will miss having a Sunday afternoon stretch out before me with nothing more than a massage, nap, and movie planned (like today).
I am feeling a little down though because I don't look as pregnant as I want too. I know it sounds silly to want to look pregnant, but when I see pictures of other women who are as far along as I am and they look more pregnant it makes me sad. Not for them, but for me. I guess I just want everyone to know that I'm not just fat, but that I have a little human inside of me. I have had women comment to me twice this week that I don't look nearly as pregnant as I am telling them I am. I understand when my students say that, they just don't have any perspective, but when women who have had babies and are older say it, well, presumably, they know what they are talking about.
On a happy note though, I already know when my first baby shower will be. I am so excited that the teachers at my school want to do this for me. It will be on Wednesday, May 16, after school. I know it might be a little early for a shower, but we only have 12 days of school left before summer break begins. The invitations are really cute too. They have a black-and-white photo of a tiny baby hand inside the mother's hand and say, "Pink or blue, we have no clue."
There were a few other things I wanted to journal tonight, but I have already rambled on quite a bit so I leave you with this little joke:
Q: Do I have to have a baby shower?
A: Not if you change the baby's diaper very quickly.